10 October 2006

so... there i go back to sch to be factory girl again after a long weekend... including a self-proclaimed holiday... hehe... things really get very monotonous when all you do is sew sew sew... sigh... but then i said i would help out in the fashion show... and it was probably one good way i could secure the chance to help out backstage as a dresser during the sfw... (for the uninitiated... sfw = singapore fashion week) oh well oh well...

i watched the episode of oprah winfrey show this evening on ch 5... it was bout this group of women... and girls... and their insecurities... one of the girl in question was a teen model... prob 16... who is very pretty... at least everybody knows that... but always looks into the mirror and feel that she is ugly and fat etc etc... and even thought of suicide coz of that... i was then telling my mother who was also watching it... "in that case... i'll kill myself too... so will many other girls..." haha... well if you think i'm in need of a wake up call too like the girl on the oprah show... its not that case!!! you should have SEEN THAT GIRL! and well her mother tried to reassure her by saying... "well you're not fat... i'm the fat one"

competition... be it negative or positive... its always part of human nature... and very much present in women... i think its been naturally configured in every woman to be competitive about appearance... no matter how pretty or slim you are... esp in weight... dont you think? and somehow its interesting how every woman in that position would say... "you're not fat! i'm the fat one!" its like trying to making oneself be the one that should be sympathised with... as justification to their trying to lose more weight and their tight, stringent diet... well well... i've just analysed myself... haha... but no...i'm not changing my mind... i'm still gonna try to lose my 5 kgs... and i'm supposed to jog tmr morning... hee...

oprah show is one of the talk shows that i really watch somewhat religiously... except for certain boring episodes... but i've learnt a lot and also got a lot of *enlightenment* watching the oprah show... many episodes leave me thinking so much more than i would normally do... like the episodes on courageous ppl and dogs... episode on holocaust and genocide survivors (elie wiesel's NIGHT) etc etc... and not to forget episodes that leave me drooling! haha... all the cakes and burgers and great food... ooh... well... i sound like some oldie... haha...

talking about watching tv... i'm so happy that princess hours or *goong* has started... *ooh... eye candy!* and i'm even happier to find that its shown at 7pm instead of 10 like dae jang geum coz it means i get to watch my other ch 5 shows without interruption... project runway, csi, criminal minds, prison break, ghost whisperer... haha... whole night of entertainment for all weekdays! yay! i'm such a tv junkie! but i'm loving it...

1207... sounds like a good time to go to bed... or i will be too lazy to go jog tmr morning... =D (you will notice that i took a tat less than 3 hours to blog this post... well i'm a busy person! haha... multi-tasking while trying to write this long essay is just what i'm the best at!)

*TO FELLOW DIET-ERS (is there even such a word?)*

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